i woke up feeling sad,frustrated and unhappy. I am not sure why but maybe there are too much unhappy stuff going on. Relatioships with bf and sister are fine. but i have lost a fren. someone who was there for me for the past 3 years. because of men, I lost a fren. she may think that her decision was not wrong. ur bf is always the one u shld trust. but i didnt do anything to upset her much. i dun know how to tok to her anymore. i sense the awkwardness btw us. all this is because of 2 men. is it worth it to sacrafice a frenship juz because of guys?i am ot sure abt her. but i know i wont. coz i feel that frenship can last 4ever. gerfrens stand by ur side. gerfrens give u the support that u need. she may be blaming on me for taking other side. i didnt take sides. i jus feel that i shldnt leave the guy alone we he has no one while she has her bf . she is so happy with her bf. so happy till she and him are in their own world. wat abt us? she couldnt be always wanting us to locked ourselves in the room. she couldnt be always wanting us to not talkto him. she can have her happy moments. wat abt us? i dun know. i felt angry and upset. but she didnt know. i talked to her last monday abt this matter. she said she will think abt it.i told her to think abt it. but after i reflected for days. i find it ridiculous for her to think about our frenships. THINK ABT OUR FRENSHIP BECOZ SHE FELT ISOLATED. u said sorry for not joining our activities coz of ur bf. i understood. ppl would get sick after being reject all the time. tt is y we didnt ask u along knowing tt u wont be going. i am angry abt thinking abt ourfrneship. one week has passed with no answer. i guesss she had given up the frenship. well, mc said not to be bothered abt her. i cant do it coz she is my fren. and i feel upset. ow come i am the one who feels upset wen she doesnt even care. i dun know y it matters so much for me. i even dreamt abt it yesterday. her situation had made my stay in aus very unhappy. i wanna go home.