i have a part time job now. or i shld say i have 3. one of it is at a sourvenir shop in the city, another one in the perth convention centre and the last one is at grinners catering. The sourvenir shop was boring at times. When there is no customers and you have finish the cleaning. I seems to clean non stop. but i am tired after a while. I worked for 10 hours but only half hr break. but i keep telling myself it is better than nothing. i wish i could work everyday. I had my first job in the Grinners catering on sat. The event was a wedding of an elderly. they had a small wedding at their place. There were about 30+ guests. It was small and cozy. THe chef, Matt was nice and humorous. I like the job. I have not started the perth convention centre job. I am working on this thurs. BUt Anton seems fierce and strict.I am expected to know alot of things. I applied for many positions. but most of them had finished their recruitment. Therefore, I left with very little jobs.
I am looking forward to 29 NOvember!I will be the happiest girl/woman on earth on tt day. And i am very looking forward to the ALbany trip with everyone!!!!!
P.s. WHY GOOD THINGS END SO QUICKLY?

i am dead bored.I have been looking for jobs but to no avail. I applied for everything. From cleaner to banquet waitress. I dont know. This is going to continued for 2 months. haiz. I dont know how to feel. I want to perfect my assignment. but i lost interest in it.

we had a mini bday celebration for gerard last sunday. we went to the ferris wheel and had sienna for dinner. went to his place ot cut hisbday cake. it was his convo on wednesday.. saw lots of "Harry Potters" walking around in their grad gowns. It looks funny. after that, we went to northbridge for supper. os treat. i am going geraldton this thursay. i dun wan to leave vette here with her but she has school. no choice.

i woke up feeling sad,frustrated and unhappy. I am not sure why but maybe there are too much unhappy stuff going on. Relatioships with bf and sister are fine. but i have lost a fren. someone who was there for me for the past 3 years. because of men, I lost a fren. she may think that her decision was not wrong. ur bf is always the one u shld trust. but i didnt do anything to upset her much. i dun know how to tok to her anymore. i sense the awkwardness btw us. all this is because of 2 men. is it worth it to sacrafice a frenship juz because of guys?i am ot sure abt her. but i know i wont. coz i feel that frenship can last 4ever. gerfrens stand by ur side. gerfrens give u the support that u need. she may be blaming on me for taking other side. i didnt take sides. i jus feel that i shldnt leave the guy alone we he has no one while she has her bf . she is so happy with her bf. so happy till she and him are in their own world. wat abt us? she couldnt be always wanting us to locked ourselves in the room. she couldnt be always wanting us to not talkto him. she can have her happy moments. wat abt us? i dun know. i felt angry and upset. but she didnt know. i talked to her last monday abt this matter. she said she will think abt it.i told her to think abt it. but after i reflected for days. i find it ridiculous for her to think about our frenships. THINK ABT OUR FRENSHIP BECOZ SHE FELT ISOLATED. u said sorry for not joining our activities coz of ur bf. i understood. ppl would get sick after being reject all the time. tt is y we didnt ask u along knowing tt u wont be going. i am angry abt thinking abt ourfrneship. one week has passed with no answer. i guesss she had given up the frenship. well, mc said not to be bothered abt her. i cant do it coz she is my fren. and i feel upset. ow come i am the one who feels upset wen she doesnt even care. i dun know y it matters so much for me. i even dreamt abt it yesterday. her situation had made my stay in aus very unhappy. i wanna go home.

I left with 2 more months to going back home. I cant wait. I thought I was happy over here.. I tot i am used to it. but seems like i am dreading to go back home everyday. except fri and sat. os, vette and mi seem busy. I don't know wen did i develop fear of going back home. Although everyone is in their own room.. some how it is still an eye sore. i tot i will have fun here.. we will be hanging out.. but things went bad.. ppl thinks that they care about alot of things but they didnt see the fact that others also give in alot of things. i dun know y am i so bothered since it is none of my fault in the first place. I guess they are too selfish to think abt my feelings. I am frustrated!! but no one understands.. i really hate my life rite now. Weekdays are dreadful.. hope that i dun feel like this tmr.. i am really unhappy abt all this.

Today is the 4 th week i am staying in school till it closes. Everyday is manatory. School, home, sleep. I am craving for enjoyment and relaxation. Studying is a 24 hours stress... I even dreamt that I have gotten back one of my assignement result. I woke up immediately after that. *speechless*. I used to worry about work . I wold dream of work. But at least, I know i can enjoy after my work. I am stuck in Bentley most of the week. I cant believed that how i tot study can bring me away from work stress. Now i know studying is much worse.
Despite all the negative aspect of studying, I learnt to be a continous learner. I discovered i enjoyed gaining knowledge etc. It also taught me to explore other context. I learnt to think outside the box. $21000 to learn all of those. It is costly..
At least, I know where i want to achieve in life. I know i can only succeed if i dare to take risk.
ENough of those self reflection!

Things are ok for me and mc.. i am trying to be understanding.. or i should say i dun have the energy or the time to throw tantrum.. :).. so mc shld be happy!
i am bored now. juz finished my assignment. n i need to edit another one. haiz. i can predict that i will pinch and bite myself on 30/10/09. That is to tell me i am free from assignments and school! i can go home!
I am getting used to the life over here. i love fri and sat whereby i can relax and we will either cook ro go out for dinner with oslee and yvette. Gerard will join us occasionally. i love the feeling of relax and worry-free. i hate sunday because i will be worrying about starting another assignment which i planned to start on monday. I felt numbness in my brain at the end of the day. Studying is stressful.. but seems like i forgotten how to work.
i dun seems to have the time or energy to call ppl and talk to them.. sometimes i feel that i am always putting in the effort and call.. Y isnt ppl calling me and asking how am i? well, that is because i am not important in their life. or they are too busy to do that. but dont complain that i didnt put in the effort to call them. it is a 2 way process.
looking forward to every weekend, and the geraldton trip!! Surdiman is going to drive us there and visit his auntie on Hari Raya. Finally i have some life!