It is a ANZAC public holiday today, therefore there is no school today. Well, there doesnt make a difference to me. Coz i will still be studyng. i have been studyin, doing assignments everyday. Life is getting stagnant here.. cant wait for 2009 to be over. i miss the free time i have i nspore though it is little. at least i don't feel the 24 hrs pressure. Some of my friends told me to enjoy studyin. initially i thought i can enjoy coz i am sick of working. now, i prefer studying. Humans are never satisfied. i am coping with studying, living in a foreign land, coping with the weather changes, coping with homesick.... my frenz and yvette did relieve some of the loneliness i felt. but nothing beats the feeling of being home. Yvette did tell me to return home during the holidays. but i feel guilty leaving her here. though i want ot go home badly. but i am afraid wen holiday is over, i have to cope with the leaving home depression again.
exams are cuming in a month. it starts in early june. 'felt emotional today..... i miss mum, grandma, gu gu, nic, and the rest.
I replace my homesickness by burying myself in studies. Gerard and yvette said i studied too much. i am doing this to occupy my mind.
My blister on my left foot is getting worse. there is yellow pus. i am worried!! i scare of infection. so i ask oslee for normal saline to clean the wound. hope it will get better soon. i wanna jog but oslee advise me not to. but i will put extra padding during jogging. bythe way i will still continue to wear the jogging shoe which mc has given me.