there is a million questions in my head.. i couldnt do my assignment.. y do i have to be more understanding wen i am tryin? y do u have to say i shattered it all wen i merely said that u didnt tell mi ur whereabouts.it is true i was upset for a moment.. coz i feel that u think it wasnt important for mi to know where r u.. well. looking back, i think i am juz being nonsense.. y do i have to be upset over something small. but the phrase 'shattered it all' hurts mi.. it is my fault again.. i am not understandin.. haiz.. i wanna say that y do i always have to be the one who beunderstandin wen u r not.. y u didnt think u got to be understandin wen i am concern abt u.. well.. i dun think u will. coz i am not understanding.. i am sick of understandin.. understandin = do things that u like and i have to understand y u do that.. how abt u?

i am supposed to be studyin but i am not.. i am not sure y did i feel so empty wen i woke up this morning.. have been sleepin kinda little lately.. due to birds chirpin and unnecessay noises in the house..
i am bored, empty.. i wanna have fun.. enuf of sch!

it is Mc bday today.. didnt do much except for giving him a jacket wen i went back home and i sent him a college... i bought a brownie to celelbrate with him but he is out with his colleagues.. so i eat it tomoro..
suffocated with assignments lately..there is endless readings and honoestly i dun know how ma i goin to do it..i am stress..i need this second half of the year to zoom by fast.. too bad it doesnt..
watching big bang theory lately.. does it pay to be smart?

I realised long time ago that it doesn't pay off to be considerate. However, i NEVER learn my mistake.I worry too much for others.. and the reaction i've got is a negative one. MAybe my way of being considerate is wrong.I MUST LEARN!!
HOw i wish i never had feelings.
How i wish i never have a heart
How i wish i never let emotions overcome me.
HOw i wish that i will be worry free everyday coz i have no feelings.
HOw i wish i wasnt affected by wat others think or feel
HOw i wish that someone will understand from my point of view.. (obviously no one can)
HOw i wish i stop being a crybaby
HOw i wish i can be strong like a Man.
HOw i wish i have more brains
How i wish i can be far away where no one will know i ever exist,in this way i can nv be unhappy
HOw i wish for a alot of things
but all of it will hardly come through.

HOw i wish............. _ _ _ _ _ _ _

It has been a long time since i last blogged..Sch term ended and wen tback home for holiday for 3 weeks.. i enjoyed myself very much.. The moment i touched down, i felt happiness.. Simple things like this couldmake me feel excited and happy. Mummy,nic and MC came and fetch me from the airport. WE went to KAtong for wantan mee as nic wanted to eat. De nwe head down to Tiong Bahru for my chee kueh.. WEnt home to sleep again.. WEnt for fish head curry at 85 with CW,nic and mc.. it was nice but service was yucky.. surprise gu gu at nioght and she hugged me and cried!!
went to URA the next day before heading to ah ma's place.. surprise ah ma.. ah ma was smiling all the way.. finally my weekend was like before.. visiting ah ma and going out with mc..
didnt contact any frenz wen i got back initially as i wanted to spend time with mc and family.met up with nic ,gwen,shu wen, ting,suat kim, kalyn,min,tee yu,mei ling,trina,yat,hui hui,maria,fazilah,nurul,yanling, swee chen.. enjoy every sec with them..
mc and i went to alot of place toeat.. P.s cafe, royal china at Raffles hotel, red star at chin swee and we got into an argument with a n ass who snatch our parking lot, greenhouse at ritz carlton,max brenner, old airport market etc... i am happy!!
now i ma back here in perth.. i was depressed... till now.. but at least better than last time.. it is not abt the people here tt makes mi dun wanna come back..it is the things in spore that i cant bear to part. well.. i got to cope..last sem..half a year to go..
looking forward to MC and CW cumin over here and we can head to ALbany!!!
JB with SUrdiaman,oslee,joyce when we go back to spore!!!
hope time past fast for this yr

it has been days since i last update.went to canberra to meet ching on 11th june.flew there alone.took cab alone.subsequently, we had dinner in one of the cafes.her hostel is nice,but the livng room and kitchen is very dirty,due to her unkempt housemates.stayed there for 3 days.we cooked,she bakes tiramisu and we keep having desserts! she brought me to visit the war museum,shopping around city, visit the parks and her school.Canberra is a quiet state despite being Aus's capital. Her ''friend'', Dave brought me to see the Parliment house and we had dinner at Redhill. on 15th june, Ching and i went to Melbourne by coach. IT leaves at 2330hrs.The driver was nice coz he allowed me to take my fleece wen i was freezing cold in the coach. we reach melbourne at 8 a.m.
Melbourne is a vibrant city. lotsa victorian stlye buildings, food is everywhere,museums and parks. went to shop in the city.the shops are huge.we stayed in Formule 1 on Elizabeth Street.Though the room was small, but it was cozy and clean.We ate Max Brenner, Bruetinni, drank hot bubble tea,salmon,and honestly i couldnt think of proper food we eat.We talked, we laughed, we pour out our woes.We ate ice cream at Lygon Street.There are lotsa restaurants andwe ate Gelato icecream.panda and lychee flavour for mi and durain for ching.
Yvette and Gerard arrived on the 17th june. Shopped around in the city, visited museums and went to Queen Vic Market.Had pizza foe dinner on the first place and had koko black's chocolate drink.Burgers,chocolates and pizzas is what we survived for the few days in the city.
went on our great ocean road trip on the 20th june, sat train to GEelong and we rented a Honda Getz. the view was magnificent and the hills and the cows,sheeps and horse were roaming around.. it makes us feel like we are in the movie' Sound of music'.. saw the famous 12 Apostles. The accomodation was bad on the first night.we stayed in a cabin. the bathroom was leaking and the floor was dirty.3 of us had to squueze in a queen size bed due to the cold weather and there is only one heater. the remaining 2 accomodation was good: the international inn at apollo bay and port o call motel in port campbell. we ate maggie for 3 days!the road was windy along the great ocean road.but i have nv regreted spendin money on this trip.it is worth it!
Our trip ended yesterday.reach perth at 0100hrs.
cant wait to go home!i sat all modes of transport:trams,trains,coach,planes,car.except helicoptor and ships and sampang boat.

i am blogging from Ching's com in Canberra.it is freezing here..couldnt go out much as it is too cold to eat out.cooked udon and had dinner early..went to National museum of Australia. Juz arrive yesterday.. took a 1010hrs flight. transit in Sydney.Reached home at 1830hrs Canberra time.2 hrs time difference..Finished my exams on Tuesday.I couldnt believe it. I amnot reading any school stuff or studying for exams anymore.i am watching series w/o guilt..i miss this lifestyle.i miss doing things without much guilt.. Next Melbourne!i am afraid of cold.and it is cold in Aus these days.. Hope vette could get over her exams soon...
N Singapore next! I miss home......